Long day...

Busy day today. Had a phone interview for a potentially better job - that was a good note to start on. Not happy with my present job. Why? Underutilized, undervalued, and not doing things that will keep marketable skills sharp. Yep, those are good reasons.

Loneliness is more intense once you've had a relationship and then don't have it. It's so hard not to think about what you had (and no longer have) rather than to think of what you could have in the future. Feeling pretty brokenhearted but at least I have friends.

Tomorrow my oldest daughter comes down to celebrate her birthday. It's actually Friday but she only has tomorrow off. I've been preparing - planning to cook some things tomorrow. She's a good person but we don't have much to say to each other.

Yes, I think you can have family and still be lonely, if you want to have a partner. But it's hard to find the right person, or you may find them and they are not really interested in you. You could always settle for less than complete compatibility but that could end up a real disaster. Better wait.

First post and history...

I haven't written much in the past several months, although my life has been turned inside out, upside down, and twisted a few times for good measure. I remember other difficult times and how good it was to take a walk in the country, write some poetry, and decompress in solitude...

There's a lot of history to catch up on... I'll try to do that in little bits and pieces. Otherwise it would be soooo boring.